A selfish wish

I am selfish. A very bad case, if I can say so myself.

I wish they won't go. I wish they would stay. Until I can also come as well.

I wish my work would let me off early. Easily. Quickly. So I can flutter my wings away.

I wish they'd just move the date, move the month, for a second time.

Then again, times like these don't always come. When time is free and spirit is wild.

Ah, conscience you come too soon, I'm not yet done.

Because albeit you wouldn't let these words escape me, they're the exact words my heart hums.

Wait for me. Please, wait for me.

Thus, the selfish wish escapes. My conscience hoping these arrows would be a miss.

For it knows well how others must have waited for a long time.

For that moment, when planets align. And the clock hand strikes nine.

Oh, the sun and the sea, the flocking of birds and nestling on the tree.

The hushing of rain, parting ways for that glorious day that we hoped would come.

Joining hands after a long time of separation. Giggling over some stupid fashion.

Alas, what have I become, an unmovable mountain of schedule.

Nothing else, nothing but a slave, a mule.

How I wish I'd see myself with them. Wishing hard, wishing strongly for sure.

That by the time the pictures are developed, I'd see myself grinning with the same allure.

However, by this time, at the strike of five in the morn,

I'd have to re-adjust myself, shake to reality, back to the normal life.

Have to satisfy myself for what is and not what ifs.

I am selfish. A very bad case, if I can say so myself.

I turn green. I turn purple. I turn blue.

But I really don't want your color to fade or gray away.

I know I'm selfish but so are you.

So go on, go now, don't look back. Retain composure.

Because I'll surely be hopping by, just right beside you.

Aha. A very selfish wish it is.

Good morning, Water Dragon!

I didn't sleep as much as a wink last night. I shut off my eyes and my brain whirs as if it still hadn't registered that I'm off to sleep.

Mode: Restless.

And I couldn't budge other keys other than than that...

Last Sunday, I lost my phone and lost all my contacts. It didn't register immediately that I was at loss. Calling my cellphone was really out of question. I unknowingly brought it almost drained. I looked for it with my friends at La Mesa Ecopark (imagine that WIDE). I learned that someone saw it and was looking for the owner.

So... we were looking for each other. A very sweet thought...

Hold your horses --- it was a family who was looking for me. However, despite his efforts, up until this day, my phone is still turned off. No effort has been made to open it and call some contacts. I guess, they yielded to that policy - Finders Keepers. :(

Pushing forth to a better year, I decided to buy myself a new phone and new sim card -fast. My brother, sister and I visited the mall. I found one that has features that I was usually opposed to.

Well, if we're heading to changes this year and to a hopeful future, better start adjusting to modern technologies. Baka next time, screen nalang ang mga monitor, hindi pa ko pamilyar sa mga prototypes, haha...

Switching from Nokia to Sony Ericson... sana user friendly pa rin siya at magamit nang tama in the future :D

I kept thinking it's a waste, losing my phone and all, and during my touring of my friends in Ecopark... but thinking back then, they were very supportive of me. Contacts can be reconnected. And life goes on.

To you who kept my phone, happy new year!

Today is yet another good shooting day. Hopefully things go well :) Ja ne!